I've kept a journal since I was 5 years old. I'm 34 years old... so that means that I have been writing for 29 years. You'd think if I loved writing so much that I'd have loads of books written and what not. Oddly, writing in my journal... is NOT the same as writing books, scripts, and what not. I write in my journal to record my thoughts, life experiences, and feelings. So my journals are strictly for the record keeping of my life. Its such an isolated activity.
Yet, I've come to realize that I can transfer my 'journal writing' to money for my survival. One of my favorite screenwriting teachers Bill Idelson told me that he came to Hollywood as a actor, and writing paid his bills. Well, I never noticed it, but I have these phases in life where I am at times very introspective, and then times where I want to feel and experience life. Well, this year has been an introspective year for me.
I've been doing a lot of reflection, observation, questioning and so forth. I feel that 'introspection' wearing its self off though... b/c I want to do more things that are physical. Like I am feeling the urge to turn up my life 'furnace'. In phases like those --- I can not write... b/c I am living boldly. Well, my senses are telling me to bank of the rest of this summer with writing projects that I want to sell or shoot in the years to come. Moments like I have now, come and go... so for the rest of August and all of September, I am going to totally focus on writing and wellness. In code, writing, weight loss, and wealth (career and housing). Gosh, I need an editor for all I will create. I like to create first, and then clean up later (edit).
I have an audition tomorrow, but my focus for the rest of this summer is all things introverted. So, that means lots of writing. I'm not a writer at heart, and I know if I don't write now --- it may be 5 years before I write again. I feel lots of external activities coming up. I want to get lost in acting and other external activities. I was watching the news the other day and saw that people free jump in Palos Verdes, and I thought to myself... omg, that's what I want to do!
